i love you

i dont think you might ever see this actually.
you forgot totally about our blog, where you would update promptly and excitedly like in the past you used to do so after our every trip out, did you?
look at what you have written in your previous post.for every little one thing that you promised me, have you done so?


But babe, should you fall, i'll be your safety net cushioning your fall.
every failure in your life, I'd take the unhappiness away. Every success in your life, i'll share the joy with you.
The road of your life, no matter how bumpy, or hard to cross, i'd take every step with you
I may not be whatever a good boyfriend is, but i promise you, i'll always be there for you
One things for sure lovee, is that you've become an irreplacable person in my life. And I'd do anything to keep you safe. I'm sorry love. I won't disappoint you


where were you, when i needed you so much? dont you think it's really kind of weird? every man would have been in the right state of mind to console or at least, accomodate to a girl when she cries. but man, you are so different.
even when i cry and begged on the phone for you to come(i know it sounds despo.i am desperate anyway), you dont even bother.
you would rather stay at home lying on your bed and sleep, or to just stare at the ceilings, for like what you say, seeing me would piss you further more.
but at that very point of time, i really need you by my side to console me, and hug me, and tell me everything is going to be alright.
i was desperate, and almost, going crazy when you told me you dont want to see me.
i had no one to turn to at all. no matter how many times yeokrui assure me that it's going to be fine, i could not assure myself.
it seems like im taking every step all by myself.i can no longer feel any trust in you and all the love you claimed you have for me.
this might be tough, this 2months absence might be toughest thing i would have to encounter for me.
im not sure about you, for it seems that you can be alright without me by your side.
it seems that i am giving too much into this relationship and this is something i should not have done.
where were the days?where you longed for me every second and every minute and could not let me out of your sight?
sometimes im wondering if you actualy appreciate me at all.


I'm just not happy when i cant see her. no, not happy at all.
Feels like my heart has a void when i'm not with you.
Friday she accompanied to jesmond's bday bbq and i love her so much for it. She makes the time spent much more memorable for me


it's weird, on how much you wanted to see me everyday and could not stand not seeing me for even one day when we first got together. when i gave in and put in as much effort in making a point to see you everyday, i got so used to it. but now you're telling me you need time to yourself, you could not breathe.you asked me to stop hovering around you so much.
what is this?
is it because you are bored of me already?
you gave me the best i ever have and took everything away from me again.
you dont know how hurtful this is to me.


i do not want to go out with you is because i am sick of going out. i want to stay at home and relax can? you think im like you is it.like to go out so much. spare a thought for me? what i like to do?i like to enjoy peace at home where it is quiet ok. is your attitude change. what happened to giving each other freedom? i gave you yours, where's mine?


i swear this is the most hurtful sms i've ever received from you and the most hurtful words i've ever heard from you, but still, second to yea, fine break up.
do you really mean it what you say in the sms?i thought you told me, going everywhere is fine for you, as long as you are with me.i really dont understand.i know there might be times when you need time to yourself.i gave you 2 days but apparently it isnt enough for you.wait, i hardly even see you much. the only time i get to spend the entire day with you is every tuesday and sat.for he rest of the day, i only see you for lunch sometimes, i dont even see you for dinner already, do you notice?
alright, i'll give you more freedom than you have right now.
i promise and i will try.


People say that the starting of relationship feels sweet, and sometimesit comes to a stalemate, and then the relationship becomes sweet again!Well, for me. I'm always feeling sweet and lovely when i'm with her. Maybepeople will think that everyone says this at the beginning of a relationship, But i believe that i'm different! I'll make this work because i truly love her! Hope shefeels the same way for me too! Feels like i can spend my life with you babe! Soi''ll be with this lovely girlfriend till the day she doesn't want me, Cause i'llnever ever give up on this relationship! Forever and ever babe! :) Iloveyoumuch.


do you still mean what you say now?
i know i havent been the best girlfriend in the world.i know i have got bad temper and bpd and all the bad stuff in the world combined together.but you do know that i love you and i will always do no matter what.
take this short break, make good use of it. think through things again, for the both of us.
i know it's been equally hurtful for the both of us.
feel free to call, sms, mms, email, or fb me.
frankly speaking, i dont think i need 2 months.
actually, maybe a day will do for me.i can do with a day to think through things.
contact me anytime you want, even after you have read this.
the next time when we see one another, let's both start afresh, like our very first date.
shy, loving, and so pure deep down within us.
i love you.